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Sigh... I really need to send my computer off today. Not having it over the weekend will give me a much needed rest. I'm single again!!! I don't think I want to be in a relationship for a long, long time. I was reading in Reclaiming Your Life about how people that have been abused choose mates like the person that abused them so they can re-enact some of their more abusive moments and get them out of their system. Well that's not very fair for anyone. I thought I could help Kevin out too but then I started losing too much of myself. I still love him, I just see patterns from my childhood re-surfacing and I don't want to go through that shit anymore. He's not an abusive person, but he is over worked and has little time for me and that makes me sad, more for him if you can believe it. So I am just licking my wounds this week. Trying to figure out just what it is I want from life. Trying to say fuck my father and really mean it because life is hard enough without trying to gain approval from an asshole that never loved ME as a person but saw me as a reflection of my dead mother. ILAC... ILAC... ILAC... |
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